I cannot believe that it is over 20 years since I left London escorts. During that time I have been busy building my own business, and had lots of fun. Unfortunately I have not been very lucky in love. To be frank, it has not featured very high on my agenda and I am not sure why. When I look back at my life, I seemed to have been able to enjoy my company and the company of my friends more than anything. Saying that, I did go through this period when I was about 34 – 35 years old when I just wanted to have sex with everybody. During that time, I had lots of lovers but I cannot say that I was really in love with any of them. In the end, I did not find the right guy. The problem is that you meet so many guys at London escorts, in the end, you sort of start looking at men in a different way and it is very much like you don’t trust them. I think that is what happened to me. Now that I am 50 years old, I realise that nobody is perfect. Sure, some guys cheat, but I am not sure that my life has been perfect. Working for London escorts is not really what you call a regular job, and now I am not so sure what I would like to do with the rest of my life. It would be great to find a love, but I am not sure it is going to happen. I have rather a few friends who have also find themselves single at 50, and they rather seem to be enjoying life and are making the most of it. The biggest problem is with the way that I feel. After having sold my business, I feel really restless, I am not sure what the answer is at all. I met one of my former colleagues from London escorts the other day, and I told her that I felt like jumping on a cruise ship and sailing around the world. Love is one thing, enjoying experiences is something totally different. When you can do that, I think that you kind of realise that life is okay. I am not sure what I am going to do. The girls who used to work for the same escort agency as me have scattered and I don’t know where most of them are. I think that it would be nice to get together and meet up with my former colleagues from London escorts. Perhaps that would give me some ideas of what to do with the rest of my life. Can you make love happen? I am not sure that you can and I have to say that I don’t know what is going to make me happy at this stage of my life. Maybe I should go on some adventures instead of hunting for love.